Friday, 6 May 2011

New symptoms.

I have been on a rollercoaster ride recently. My health is all over the place, but what is a little worrying is my memory.
I could not even remember my own address and phone number the other day. I completely locked myself out of my email account by using the wrong password too many times. (thankfully my hubby fixed it for me). I have forgotten my PIN number for my debit card on occasions too. I seem to get stuck in mid conversation with people so often now.

My head feels fuzzy, like in a haze - it is quite upsetting and embarrassing.

It seems to come and go, like there is pothole in the road, sometimes you miss it sometimes you hit it. I will discuss this with my neurologist later this month.

I am truly thankful I can feel the presence of the Lord with me. He knows what I want to say even when I don't in prayer. I can just sit quietly with the Lord, saying nothing in my times of confusion.

How wonderful is that! I am so thankful I am the Lords.

I would really value your prayers at this time.


Moomin said...

Dear Clare,

Thanks for the update. It is horrible for you - a further physical manifestation of disruption to the nervous system due to MS. You are still the same though, even if your brain can't function as usual, and the Lord never changes. '..looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him (Jesus)... lest you grow weary and discouraged in your souls.' HEBREWS 12:2,3 There indeed is your soul's anchor. with our prayers, love from Moomin xx

Susanna said...

only just seen this :( will be praying very much for you.
On a purely practical note, have written down somewhere your basic info (granted you may not want to write down your pin) but have it somewhere you know to look if you forget.but address, phone number etc- keep them to hand. Lots of lvoe to you xx

EJK said...

Clare, I have in the past, prayed for you. I am reviving my time in prayer for you after hearing this update.

Although having a different illness, my wife too, has times of memory loss. It does not seem as severe as yours, but it is quite frustrating for her also.

I am glad to hear that you have a husband who loves you dearly. (I love to read his posts) It was actually through reading one of his post quite awhile ago that I found out that you had a variety of health issues. My wife too has more than one issue. She too like you is relying on Her Lord and Saviour.

Lord, I lift up Clare to you now. I ask that you would heal all her physical infirmities. I ask that you heal her mind. I ask that for Your glory you would answer not just this prayer, but also that of her friends, family, and especially her husband. Lord, I ask that you take notice of your daughter, who in the midst of all of this is still holding on to You and giving You all the glory. Amen Lord Jesus!